🖤💫💜I THOUGHT U WERE MY LAST💜💫🖤

This poem is dedicated to the narcissistic liar that is no longer in my life🥀

Shame on me, fooled from the start

I felt like I was floating

High up in the clouds

Yet almost exploding

While u were always

“love bombing” me

Ur first victim I am not

Should have just let me be

But u prefer the vulnerable

The very weak

The hurt, sad

Yet meek

I was only a “source”

Trapped inside ur selfish den

I wont be ur last

Sadly u were my best friend

To think we spoke of marriage

And motorcycle rides lasting for hours

Picnics on the beach

And a perfect place to plant my sunflowers

Boy did u move fast…

But I forget how many

U have stringing along

For u had one all ready

The day u decided to just “ghost”me

U were too childish to talk it out

I didn’t see the “red flags” popping all around me

It’s very much the cowardly way about

U have done a terrible thing

How do u face every day

Discarding a heart

I guess it’s just ur way

A narcissistic liar

Like cutting a string

It was like nothing

Heartache and torment u bring

Why did u do it

For so very long?

And omg

U were writing me a song?

Now I can laugh

At all the lies u told

U cant do this forever

Soon u will become old

For so long

U knew just what to say

I was nothing in ur eyes

Another “host” so u could stay

U even left me hungry

Down and out we’ll say

U said…”its not like its forever”

“I’m sure u will be ok”

Maybe get urself some help

At least u can try

I do hope u treat those around u well

For me this is farewell and goodbye🥀

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🎵🖤I WANT IT ALL🖤🎵

I WANT IT ALL was written by #BarbaraOrbison and #JorgenElofson of #KellyClarkson “A Moment Like This” first hit song Fame. It is a beautifully written timeless classic.

Barbara was #RoyOrbisons second wife and a very close friend of Benny’s. They did have a falling out and unfortunately Roy passed away b4 he told Benny he 4gave him. So when Barbara wanted Benny to sing this beautiful song she also told Benny that Roy 4gave him and loved him b4 passing and discussed it with Barbara to pass along to Benny.

Please enjoy it. It’s like an angelic voice and it just gives me tingles ever time I hear it.

Ready….close ur eyes🎵

🎵🖤DEDICATION SUNDAYZ🖤🎵

INTO THE NIGHT is Benny’s big chart topping song. Written by #BennyMardones and #RobertTepper. It went #1 on the top ten charts twice. In 1980 and 1989. He has such powerful voice that they nicknamed him #The Voice. When #RoyzOrbison passed away then #BarbaraOrbison called Benny and insisted that he be the one to do the tribute to Roy on tv with Roy’s band.He did an exceptional job.

Benny is now not doing so well as he developed Parkinsons quite a while ago and cant really preform again. Although he would love to play in Syracuse just….one more time. Syracuse loves him so much that the mayor gave Benny a key to the city. He is bed ridden and was in the hospital for over a year. There is a #gofundmebennymardones page to donate. If u can then please help this legend💜🎵

🖤 Lil Hummingbird🖤

In the mist of ur silence

I gave up my crying of rivers

Focusing on all the wonderful things

That u taught me

Moments of laughter and bandaging of ur soul

Sweetly caressing ur wonderful heart

All the joy u brought to me every day we talked

Such a gentle soul who loved simplicity

Always thinking of others, so thoughtful

Brave, loving always, exciting, humble and pure

Firm, trustworthy, adamant, truthful, always  loyal

I helped u get out of ur darkness

And u began to feel urself again

So lucky to have found u in such a gigantic world

They say people find each other for a reason

To teach, to guide, to love and stay with each other

Forevermore

Once upon a time I was ur

Forever girl

Your Babydoll Hummingbird

And now ur the one that got away

I dont know why u vanished

Like a predatory thief into the nite

For u never said a word

If u wanted me to hate u

I could never do that

For u mean the world to me still

I have been so sad and lonesome

Like the howling wolf in the nite

Without ur voice I hear silence

When I said I love you

It will be u for always, my sweet love of my life

There is always room for u in my life

I will forever be in love with U

I dont have a need for my heart anymore

U took it all when u left

U said it was u and I forevermore

Until the end of our lives

I hope u r gentle with my heart

For it is not a toy

I believed every word that u said

I cant believe ur gone

I only wanted u to just stay

To embrace U and hold U

Look into those big magical eyes of urs

That I waited to look into all my life

For there I see us smiling and dancing

With u holding the small of my back

That’s sends tingles up my spine

Into the erogenous zone

Where we r entwined as one

Where secret kisses r shared

And engulfed in our radiant passion

Like the sweet lil hummingbird

Who lives for the sweet nectar

And just as the springtime is here right now

I will always be here for U

COPYRIGHT 2020. SpiritedSoul/Keza. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

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Written for my lost muse🐺🕯💋